Scoasa din priza

Scoasa din priza

Ati putea crede ca daca am copilul plecat in tabara, timp de 3 zile voi putea face o gramada de “nebunii” interzise sau greu accesibile parintilor. Dar adevarul e ca ma simt complet scoasa din priza.

EN: You might think that if the child is away at camp, for 3 days I’ll be able to do plenty of “wild” forbidden things which are barely accessible to parents. But the truth is I feel completely drained.

Azi noapte l-am visat. Se intamplase ceva cu el in tabara, iar eu aparusem ca un salvator din tufisuri… Dar el e bine-mersi acolo. Asa ca m-am trezit cam pe la ora la care el trebuia sa fie la gradi (in jur de 9) si … nu am stiut ce sa fac. Nu mai era ritmul ala nebun, nu ma mai alerga nimeni si nu trebuia sa alerg pe nimeni.  As mai fi stat in pat cateva ore, dar parca nu mi se cuvenea acest drept. Exista in mine si aceasta initiativa de a face mai multe lucruri, pe care nu apucam sa le fac in mod normal – initiativa care pe de o parte nu ma lasa sa lenevesc, pe de alta parte nici nu era clar directionata catre ceva. Caci eu doar mi-am pregatit copilul pentru plecare, dar nu m-am pregatit si pe mine. Adica sa imi fi facut un plan de activitati pe 3 zile. Nu, sunt cat se poate de dezorganizata din acest punct de vedere.

Asadar, acum am iesit sa fac alt shooting cu Radu, mai tarziu am acceptat invitatia la niste evenimente, dar sunt complet lipsita de chef si fara vlaga, ca si cand m-ar fi scos cineva din priza. Abia astept ora la care il pot suna!

In poze port: sacou si tricou H&M, pantaloni Uterque, botine Zara, geanta Marc Jacobs, ochelari Burberry, colier Malvensky. Iar video cu tinuta in miscare:

EN: I dreamt about him last night. Something had happened to him in camp, and I showed up like a savior from between the bushes… But he’s just fine. So I got up about the time he was supposed to be in kindergarten (around 9) and… I didn’t know what to do. No crazy rhythm, no more running around or chasing anyone. I would have stayed in bed for a few more hours, but I felt like I didn’t earn this right. There was this drive in me to do a lot of things, which I don’t get around to normally- drive which didn’t allow me to be lazy, but wasn’t directed towards to something either. Because I only prepared my child for camp, but I didn’t prepare myself. I had no activity plan for the next 3 days. No, I am not organized from this point of view.

So, now I am out doing another shooting with Radu, later I accepted the invitation to some events, but I am completely drained out, almost like unplugged. I can hardly wait for the time I can call him!

In the pictures I am wearing: H&M blazer and t-shirt, Uterque pants, Zara ankle boots, Marc Jacobs bag, Burberry glasses, Malvensky necklace. And above the outfit on the move.