Feeling Good

Feeling Good

Va scriu din cabina teatrului, caci in seara aceasta am spectacol. Desi mi-e foarte somn, pentru ca ieri am filmat pana la 12 noaptea, ma simt asaaa… invaluita intr-o stare de bine. E ceva deosebit, va zic. Sa fi intrat Venus la mine in zodie? Sa fie soarele de afara? Sa fie Radu care m-a privit cu blandete si in aceasta dimineata in timp ce dormeam langa Vlad? Sa fie chiar Vlad cu care am facut piata azi si care tocmai ce m-a invatat ca o gura de aer mai proaspat poti lua daca pur si simplu te opresti langa un capac, in drumul de la Mega spre casa?

EN: I am writing to you from the theatre dressing room, because I will be on stage tonight. Even though I am very sleepy, yesterday I had a shooting which lasted until midnight, I feel sooooo….wrapped in a feeling of wellbeing. It’s really special, I’m telling you. Maybe Venus is in my sign again? Maybe it’s Radu who looked at me so gently this morning while I was sleeping next to Vlad. Or maybe it’s actually Vlad who we took to the market today and who just taught me that you can also catch a breath of fresh just by standing next to a tree, on your way home from the supermarket.

Am zis sa va scriu acum, cat inca persista starea asta de bine, fara un motiv clar definit, ca poate va molipsesc. Sper sa atraga lucruri bune, caci altfel in viata mea legea asta a compensatiei a functionat intotdeauna al naibii de bine. O bucurie mare a fost echilibrata mereu de o mare tristete. Daaaar, sa nu piara zen-ul, ca momentan chiar nu sunt motive. Plus ca nu e vorba de o mare bucurie, ci doar de o stare de bine, contrar asteniei specifice sezonului.

In drum spre teatru, azi am gasit si o hartie de 100 lei… Pe Radu l-a bufnit rasul cand m-a vazut ridicand banii de pe strada, cautand stanga-dreapta vreun posibil posesor al lor. Ce sa fac, sa incerc si un bilet la loto? Nu de alta, dar sunt si intr-o perioada in care imi cumpar multe haine, pentru ca mi se pare ca imi stau mai bine acum! Va rog, nu radeti de mine. Stiu ca suna pueril tot ce va povestesc aici. Dar adevarul e ca a devenit aproape straniu sa auzi un om ca se bucura de o zi obisnuita, declarand ca ii e bine, ca e suficient de fericit cu ce are. Fara sa fi avut niciun motiv recent de bucurie cu totul deosebit. Nu vi se pare?

Cand deschizi insta stories, o gramada de lume se plange de tot felul de lucruri prostesti. Asa ca parca iti si pierzi curajul de a mai spune celorlalti ca tie ti-e ok, ti-e bine. Si sigur, sunt o multime de lucruri care ma deranjeaza, care ma frustreaza, care ma intristeaza… dar azi pur si simplu le-as lua pe toate mai usor. Sa va fie bine, oameni buni! Suficient de bine, cat sa nu suparam pe nimeni.

In poze port: camasa vintage (cumparata din Amsterdam), body catifea Tex, blugi One Teaspoon (Sport Couture), pantofi Chanel. Iar tinuta in miscare:

EN: I thought I should write to you now, while my feeling of wellbeing still lasts, without having a proper reason, because maybe I can pass it on to you. I hope this attract other good things, because in my life the compensation law has always been in effect. A great joy was always evened out by a great sorrow. Buuuut, don’t let the Zen get lost, because for the moment there really aren’t any reasons. It’s not really a great joy, it’s more a sense of wellbeing, as opposed to the weather blues which is specific these days.  

On my way to the theatre, I found a 100 lei bill… Radu began to laugh when he saw me picking up the money from the street, while looking around for the person who lost it. What should I do next, should I try playing the lottery? Because I am also in a shopping streak, I feel the clothes look better on me now! Please, don’t laugh. I know it sounds childish what I am telling you now. But the truth is it’s almost strange to hear someone enjoying a regular day, stating that they’re doing fine, that they’re happy enough with everything they have. Without having any recent reason for joy. Don’t you think so?

When you open InstaStories, a lot of people complain about foolish things. So you almost lose the courage to tell everyone else that you’re doing fine, that you’re ok. And of course, there are a lot of things which bug me, which frustrate me, which make me sad…but today I would like to take everything easy. Be well, kind people! Well enough not to upset anyone else.

In the pictures I am wearing: vintage shirt (bought from Amsterdam), Tex velvet bodysuit, One Teaspoon jeans (Sport Couture), Chanel shoes. And above the outfit on the move.